Perspective

Recently, I have been going through some of my old journals that date back over the past three years. Here is a peek into my inner thoughts:

10/29/16: “Building our business: Bigger picture: retreat style CE’s (continuing education); extend to corporations; public speaking; international; renowned healer provider; healing the healer; train the trainer; healing healers one mindful moment at a time; weekend schedule for retreat; relax-personal retreat; explore-programs and workshops; learn-continuing education”.

7/26/18: “I have recently begun yet another business journey. I am of course fearful of it never becoming a reality. My fear often gets in the way. I don’t give things my 100% because of the fear of failure and security of having a steady stream of income. This time, I will give all my efforts which will be difficult on different days. I will fight for my dream and make it a reality”.

9/24/18: “How appropriate. I am currently stuck. I was filled with excitement and now there is fear. I am allowing myself to be overrun with all my fears…of failure, of not having what it takes, of ‘I’m not enough”. I have been off balance all day, and probably longer when I think about it. I am losing track of my thoughts, disconnected, and then overwhelmed. I know what it takes to create an amazing program. That IS what I know-inspiration, connectedness, innovative. I do have a creative side, then in comes doubt. I think it is a constant battle between intuition and intellect. I am doing this. I know it will be amazing and I move forward with fear, not from fear.”

10/11/19: “How I envision my business: An intimate retreat centering offering health and wellness. Guests will be provided with living spaces, with each living quarter providing a tranquil and serene space. My business will provide a sanctuary for whole body healing.”

So….anyone else see a common theme in all of these entries?! Seriously people!! Three years!! I started getting frustrated with myself due to my lack of follow through with my dreams and aspirations (aka. business plans). When am I going to start following through with my visions for my business?! At this point, I identified that I could do one of two things. I could wallow in my self-pity of believing I am a complete failure, or I could trust in the universe, understanding that I am on this amazing journey that allows for self growth, insight, and abundance, and the belief that I am right where I am supposed to be.

When I look at my professional (and personal) journey throughout these past three years, I notice that I have been living out my life’s dream. A common thread in all of my business visions include creating a trusting and compassionate space for others to grow and learn. Over the past three years, my position has been as the Clinical Director of treatment centers, where I have been given the opportunity to lead professionals and create programs. I have been able to create the culture that embodies my visions and my entire being. How freaking amazing is that?! In this realization, I have accepted two things to be true…1. These past three years have given me the opportunity to create, network, plan, carry out, understand, and create cultures, and 2. Every day prepares me for what I am to create on this Earth…what I was created to create. And I am so excited to see what every new day brings.

So, here is the question…are you viewing your life filled with abundance or scarcity? I challenge you to reflect on this, and notice how your perspective is able to change!

Much love, LJ