Spiritual Cheerleaders

Throughout my entire life, I have always felt a strong presence that I was being looked over. I didn’t have the capacity to fully understand the significance of this feeling. I was lucky enough to have all of my grandparents and even a set of great grandparents living while I was younger.

The first person I lost was my great grandmother “Grandma with the White Hair”. She was an overweight Polish lady that called us curse words in Polish. I absolutely adored her. She had a heart attack and was placed on life support. I remember visiting her in the hospital while she was unresponsive. That was very confusing and difficult for me at 12 years of age. There were many more losses I would endure throughout the years. Those spirits who have left this Earth include my maternal grandfather, a family friend, Gary, who passed at the very young age of 21 in a jeep accident, my great grandfather, my Uncle Pete, my Grand-Uncle Neil, and both my paternal Grandparents.

Throughout growing up, I never really understood how I survived my crazy teen years. I was beyond reckless. I would throw crazy parties. I used drugs and alcohol to attempt to numb my feelings. I drove recklessly. I skipped classes. I went to college bars when I was still in High School. I didn’t understand consequences of my actions. There is no doubt in my mind that all of those spirits were seeing me through those situations. Not to mention all the people around me in order to make sure my lack of impulses negatively impacted those around me. My spiritual guides sure were busy! Unfortunately, I was too busy rebelling and distancing myself from the Catholic religion to fully understand the unconditional love being sent to me from Above and from the Universe.

It was not until a few years back until I really started taking deep dives into my spirituality. The Universe brought me to Dave Miller, one of my Therapists and spiritual mentors throughout my life. He began guiding me in spiritual awareness and meditations through Christian Tantric Meditation. I had my first experience with getting in touch with my Spiritual Team. I was having a particularly difficult day at work and left early. I stopped at the local Catholic Church to meditate. That small church in Clarkesville soon filled with all of the light and unconditional love of every single person that had passed from this Earth, as well as my mother, who was physically distant in New York. It was one of the most moving experiences in my life at the age of 35. I continued my work with Dave. As our paths crossed more, and I hired him as a Spiritual Director at a facility I ran, we had to change our relationship. That is where I was blessed with my next Spiritual Mentor, Suzanne Waller. She helped me learn to love and forgive myself. She re-introduced me to my inner child. She sat next to me and put her hand on mine when I cried as a child would, as I noticed how much I just yearned to be soothed. She was monumental in my continued growth. And finally, I met my current spiritual mentors, Shelley Riutta and Nancy Gnecco.

These wonderful women prepared me for the largest loss in my life-the loss of my father-Patrick Joseph (PJ). His physical body left this world one year ago yesterday. He has been my biggest spiritual cheerleader yet. He inspired me to take leaps towards my Life Purpose. He has helped me to dig deep and align with my Authentic Self. He is with me when I am scared. He is with me when I am happy. When I am filled with self doubt, he is the quiet voice telling me to “stay the course”. And this weekend, he gave our family another gift. You see, my little sister was pregnant and her due date was September 4th. She didn’t find out the gender of the baby, as she had done before. So, on August 21st, Patrick Joseph was born into this world. I do not believe this happened by chance. I know he has been with us in spirit since his passing. Now, he has reappeared in this world as my sister’s son. What a blessing to all of us.

I know that my Dad, and all of my other Spiritual Guides, are always with me. They are cheering me on. They are guiding me in the directions my soul is supposed to travel. They are watching over me and my family for protection. I am so blessed I can hear them and feel them. Their love flows to me, and my love flows to all I come in contact with. I encourage all of you to get quiet, open your heart, open your mind, and tap into the quiet voices of your soul. They will never lead you astray.

Sending much love and light always, LJ